by Auckland, New Zealand – In a candid and revealing new interview, Lorde, the Grammy-winning singer-songwriter, has shed light on two deeply personal aspects of her life: her experiences with drug use and her evolving gender identity. The 28-year-old artist opened up about starting drug use at a young age and shared intimate insights into her gender fluidity journey, captivating fans and sparking conversation worldwide.
Lorde Shares Her Experience with MDMA and Early Drug Use
During a revealing discussion with Dazed, Lorde admitted that MDMA is her drug of choice. Reflecting on her youth, she acknowledged she began experimenting with substances when she was “too young.”
Recounting a vivid memory from when she was 19, she said,
“When I was 19, on MDMA — it does something good to a cigarette. I’ve never been that into smoking, but I remember saying it out loud — ‘This is the best cigarette of my life’ — and I kept the butt in an envelope.”
This honest admission offers a glimpse into her personal history and the complexities behind her public persona.
- Age 19: Started experimenting with drugs, specifically MDMA.
- MDMA enhanced her experience with smoking cigarettes.
- Admits to starting drug use when she was younger than she considers appropriate.
Exploring Gender Fluidity and Identity Unfolding
Lorde also shared her thoughts on her gender identity, building on previous comments made to Rolling Stone earlier this year. She described herself as being “in the middle” gender-wise, stating,
“I’m a woman except for the days when I’m a man.”
She elaborated on the challenges of navigating clothing and makeup choices that align with her fluctuating gender expression:
“Some days, I can’t wear women’s clothes. I’ve had to figure out how to have my make-up done in a way that doesn’t make me feel trapped or tight or like the wrong thing. There always need to be options for clothing, or shirts. I had no idea there would be days when I felt totally out-of-body, and it was because I was wearing women’s clothes when it wasn’t the right thing.”
Lorde emphasized that her gender identity remains a work in progress, saying,
“It’s all a journey. I have no idea where it’s gonna go; it doesn’t feel like I’ve arrived anywhere permanent at all. It really took me by surprise how much shame I felt — feeling all that come up wasn’t easy. Even as I see my friends coming fully into their genders, feeling nothing but pride, love, respect and bliss. I just think it takes time to metabolize and find itself. I’m excited to find out where that lands, if it ever does land. Your whole life it keeps unfurling.”
- Gender identity: Fluid, existing between male and female on different days.
- Challenges: Clothing and makeup choices that feel authentic and comfortable.
- Emotional journey: Encountered unexpected shame and uncertainty.
- Ongoing process: Identity continues to evolve and ‘unfurl’ over time.
A Transformative Moment: Taping Her Chest
One of the most profound revelations Lorde shared was about taping her chest for the first time, a turning point that led to profound self-understanding. She experienced this revelation towards the end of 2023.
Describing the experience, she said,
“Something really happened for me when I taped my chest for the first time. I came into some understanding about myself, and felt a very pure version of myself present.”
The moment sparked creative inspiration as she wrote her song “Man of the Year.” She envisioned herself performing the song on TV in a way that felt authentic to her new self-image.
Lorde shared,
“We started writing the song, and I saw this TV performance of it [in my mind’s eye], and it wasn’t even finished. And in the performance I saw myself in jeans, no shirt. And I thought about how I would actually do that on TV. It wasn’t a bra. I had this roll of tape and grabbed it, put my jeans on, taped up, and saw myself — and was like, ‘F—, that’s me.- Suddenly, I could see it. It was scary.”
Despite initial surprise, she now embraces both feminine and masculine sides, feeling “beautiful,” “vulnerable,” and “calm.”
“I didn’t even know I wanted that to be me, but now I feel so beautiful in both ways. I feel vulnerable and calm. It really tripped me out.”
Looking Forward to a Continuing Journey
Lorde’s openness offers fans an intimate look at her personal evolution, from early drug experiences to an ongoing, fluid understanding of gender identity. Her story highlights the complexities of self-discovery and the courage to share it publicly.
This interview sheds light not only on her personal challenges and triumphs but also on broader conversations about identity and authenticity in today’s world. For more details on Lorde’s heartfelt revelations, visit the full article at NewsBreak.
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